♥




i do not know if im being too over emotional to things like this,
but this feelings is just... uhm, just no words to describe.
living in this world prone to have more hurdles than a smooth tracks,
you've gotta learn to jump one hurdles to another, one by one,
and not letting it fall on track. besides that, its really a challenge
to motivate yourself to become a stronger person, in another words,
when other person motivates you, you're randomly listening;
yes, by just listening and not doing anything.
but whats important is yourself, YOU have to motivate YOURSELF.






my weaknesses is there, i CANNOT move on, unless im positively ready.
i cant move on when my heart is still curing.
i cant move on when people is still talking about it.
i cant move on when people start asking me questions.
i cant move on when people keep reminding me about it.
nobody can help, but myself.
i need to close my ears, shut my eyes and accept with an open heart.


been keeping myself really busy, work, school, DL, and off course,
keeping myself fit every night, or go for a short "bubble tea & hotdogs" date
with friends, is just something to distress,
thou husband is tight with his work and stuff.





when i know i have achieve something that i want,
i will be very HAPPY and proud of myself, even
if its just small little things that you do.
like for example light a lighter?! heh!
(i do not know how to light a lighter fyi, tq!)


thou it aint easy to clean all the mess in my mind,
but im trying to be more focus on my plans now,
and adapt all things in life, GOD is fair, right?! :)
i wanna be as happy as i can, like a baby who hears nothing,
but focusing on what she/he can do, drinking milk,
trying to stand on their two feet and start to walk small step by step.
im not gonna waste my time crying, sit in the dark;
i wanna do something productive in life before its too late.

"Follow your dream...take one step at a time and don't settle for less, just continue to climb. Follow your dream...if you stumble, don't stop and lose sight of your goal, press on to the top...For only on top can we see the whole view, can we see what we've done and what we can do, can we then have the vision to seek something new...Press on, and follow your dream."
-- Amanda Bradley

till then lovelies,
have a great weekend! :)





love,
sue