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for the first two months of my pregnancy, things are getting ridiculously weird
when i started to hate the smell the random things around me,
and urgh, having to hate my favourite food is another thing hokay..*SAD*
poor hubby who to tolerate all my nonsensical and have to do what I WANT him to do.
i use to love prawns, be it, just normal fried prawns, butter prawns or whatsoever,
i will surely dying to eat them and ofcos tell my husb to peel it for me *step manja*.
huahehehaha.
BUT NOW, no more...



I HATE PRAWNS.
I HATE RICE.
I HATE SUSHI.
I HATE SAMBAL.
I HATE FISH. GIVE ME FISHBALL ALSO I PUKE.
I HATE THE SMELL OF MY HUBBY'S DEODORANT.
I HATE THE SMELL OF HOME COOK FOOD.
I HATE TO BE ALONE.
BLA BLA BLA.


and recently ive been craving alot.
and these food i rarely have err like..


I LOVE CRABSSSSSS.
I LOVE STEAKSSSSSS.
I LOVE BREAD.
I LOVE MACDONALDS.
I LOVE COKE!!!!!!! (YES COKE!! I REALLY HATE COKE U KNOW)
I LOVE CHOCOLATES!! (IM NOT A SWEET TOOTH U KNOW)
I LOVE DURIAN! (I USED TO HATE DURIAN THE MOST I TELL YOU)


and since forever, hubby HAVN'T SATISFY MY CRAVINGS for... :(


breadtalk chicken floss bread ( @ JB )
bubur pandan ( pandan @ JB )
bubur west coast



just cos he's really busy with work and no one could assist us
to jaybee :(


im really really sad.
and i hate the fact that he's away to work and leaving me alone at home.



so emotional right?! dont blame me lah... i every night cry you know!!!
i dont bedek you wan....



but having him to msg me and tell me he loves me,
nothing beats that ok. im smiling to sleep i tell you,
DESPITE having super cramps on my tummy, and sleepless nights.


2 weeks to next checkup :) YEY



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remember my 2010 resolutions?!!
im kinda proud of myself actually!! teeeheeee
pray for me lah hor... pray i can fulfill my plans for the year!
but for sure, I KENOT BE SLIM lah... nyeehehe
well i think blog twice today, i must be that bored....



been munching non stop since morning.
20 dollars worth of food a day is err..... PERANGAI BUDAK GEMOK



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thou i do not earn a million bucks.
ive earn a million smiles and happiness from my love ones.
you may have everything, you may have what you always wish for,
but i wish for nothing but good health, happiness and safety.



sometimes girls, you need a good lesson.
you can't have the best of both worlds.



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i was in such a pain where i thought missy red is coming anytime soon.
so i waited. waited for a week but there's so sign of it.
i was dehydrating much, i was thirsty all day as though i didn't have much H2O
on my body, but hey, you mean already drinking a few bottles of mineral water
didn't do much justice to my body system?! that is pretty much weird.
curiosity didn't struck me yet.


was at ben & jerry's when my bladder couldn't hold on any longger.
i pee-ed and realise i was bleeding. when i say bleeding, i saw red liquid
on the toilet bowl and some stains on my err, undergarments *shy*
it was so fresh, not as err brownish like bloody menses.
i ignored and ask around for pads -.- and told the husband "ah, periodssss"



and so miss pad-dy continues to serve me, but hey there's nothing,
no stain no nothings.
i was err "ey?! dah tkde pulak?!"
so all my gf's was like "alah belen belen dulu agaknya" HAHAHAHA
okay thats funny okay..
and i belardy gundu wait and ignore lah...


was alone in the office where i decided to skip lunch and
window shop at WATSON's. -.- (tempat puaka)
my eyes was on vitamins when i just happen to see "test kit" on the same shelf,
i grab one, pay and yes.... pee on it lah whatelse?! -.-
so , waited..... 5 mins later.. double line = positive.





i was "what im a positive?!!!!" i wasn't sure if this thing is accurate.
so i ask one of the lab tech to check my HCG, and it was HIGH lah..
its shows about 6 weeks already. haha. i was smiling and alfiah started laughing
and yes congratulate me, shower with me with her nonsense (nothing new HAHA).
i didnt dare to break the news to my colleague so i just keep it to myself
and closest people.



and i didnt stop there!! I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE ITS ALL POSITIVE!!
i'm irritating, dont you thing so?! hehe.
i went to the nearest women's clinic, and ask if i can go for a scan.
we scan and the dr scan my tum tum. we cant see much cos everything
was dark inside there (my tummy that is), he said we can only ur big bladder now,
(kurang ajar).. LOL
so no choice have to insert a huge dont-know-what inside my err, hole?!
yes, a little pain but okaylah, bearable.. and THERE, that little black
thing on my tum tum.







dr: there is it ( he showed me ) still small so cannot see much
me: so im really pregnant ah?
dr: yalah hahahaha you ah...
me: haha i cannot believe
dr: come another 2 weeks den can see
me: oh ok ok
dr: i will give you the scan pictures ok

hubby wasnt there so i was actually "eh brape eh dia nye bill?!"
LOL...
the total bill was 120SGD. *phew*


few days later, i was having a super high fever, i couldn't move much,
lucky enough that the husband is still available to nurse me throughout.
well, i really cant thank him enough, he's been such a sweetheart.
and im totally blessed.
we visited the GP and he could only give me some panadols and normal cough syrup,
he said at the moment, he cannot give me any antibiotics cos im preggy.
:(
so ive gotta be stronger to fight this virus, and things got worser
when i got urine infection. argh.. so the super long weekend was spend most
of time on my bed. Shivered..
poor husb who have to nurse me 24/7 and have to find food himself.
i feel so bad.... so so bad you know :(
my MC got extended by the dr cos i wasn't recovering much.
i almost faint on the train too!! im dying, no i didnt lie :(


so i went to work eventhou i wasnt feeling good yet -.-
have to lah, if not chialat. :/
i began to feel weak every morning, i need my breakfast before i start anything.
im not a breakfast person you know.. i have to drink ALOT.
WAH everything change since.

and so everyone advice me to visit the GYNAE since im preggy and was really sick earlier.
it was hard for me as my husband is with a shift job, and its pretty hard
to know when his off day is. cos this time, i want him along..
so yest, we decided to visit the gynae at the very last min, lucky enough,
thomson have night clinic on certain days. *phew* so i dont need to waste my belardy
annual leave. i left with a few till next year april u know! :(


the dr did a scan on me, and there... *blink blink*


dr: mr, do you see the blink blink, that's the heartbeart.


i think he is overwhelmed HAHAHA
and since he paid the "fuyoooooo" price of the bill, i treat my monster
to a good nasi ayam penyet ria at jurong point !! hehehehehe
seriously, being pregnant is expensive nowadays!! oh my..
but nevermind, for the baby's sake.. insyaallah.
and here this is yest's scan of our little pea :)


and i am so ready to break the news to you beautiful people.
im soscared excited.
this is it. at 9 weeks.. :)





and im getting fatter. nothing's new kan?!
hehehehehehe

that's all for now, will update more insyaallah! :)
good day beautiful people.

love,
sue



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im loving this song :)



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i couldnt thank the husband enough for his TLCss
when i was very sick. i cant control myself and the emotions im going through
and all i thought was, i need more pills to pop. but at the current condition
i am now, all i could afford is to endure and get more rest. i cannot take any
antibiotics tooo.
my MC got extend by the dr and my back is killing me and there, start the sleepless nights. :(

i do not know how long can this go,
but i just hope that i can stay strong and think positive.
being not able to stand so long is one thing, being not concentrating
with work is another. being nausea, dreadful, too weak to even walk could have
end me up on bed the whole day. but then, i still need to drag myself to work.
:( and this is when i need the husb 24/7.



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will never trade for anything else in this world



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another assignment for makeup & photography.
maternity photoshoot for the super cute and adorable couple,
mr and mrs nurhairul :)









<3 <3



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i might be that girl/lady whose afraid of the horrors of going thru pains and suchs,
but today, might be the most happiest day of life since im married to my man.
i should wait, i should seek to god for his guidance, i really want this, god.
i couldnt control my tears, tears of overwhelmed happiness.
is this for real?! is this real?! is this happening?!



pray for me little angels.



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oh wow, im pretty much bless with life right now.
work has been the reason why im getting so busy and so so tired.
imagine this, the moment i reach home, i couldnt wait any longer
but to jump to my bed with the makup on BTW. -.-
ive been feeling so restless, so tired and dehydrated.
been drinking alot recently and forget about my meals,
i feel so bloated. argh.


finally, ive decided to trim my hair despite getting multiple
warns by the husband to keep the length of my hair now. -.-
okay fine, no diff to my hair, but i feel lighter. haha crap.


2 hrs to go before rushing home for bed.
pls dont call me a lazy bum, i NEED my rest.
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who's willing to do the whole lot of laundry for me?!
:(



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ahhh i wanna update i wanna update!!!
:p



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If we dont discipline ourself, other's will teach you how
and as long as i live, there is just one thing ive always needed,
having tremendous self control.
you cannot blame me for being a control queen.


"It is surprising what a man can do when he has to,
and how little most men will do when they don't have to."



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firstly, ive been receiving/hearing good news.
most of my friends, and those who is a newly wed too,
is preggy with their first.
Big congrats to you, future mummy & daddy! :)


meanwhile, as you know, i love babies/toddlers so much,
i have quite a few faces of babies/toddlers in my phone too you know.
and recently, i met two adorably cute toddlers, one is azhar's nephew,
the other is herlina's daughter!
cute arnt they?! u agree with me?!!





this girl here so manja one... daddy's girl!! :p





i wonder how my future baby will look like?!
:p



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in life, there's nothing you wanna look for accept happiness and good health,
unless you're much unsatisfied with everything or anything that god had
given or written for you.
ive always wanted that happiness like everyone else do, thou i will nvr know
how they've gone thru shits and stuff but atleast, i wanted to taste.
give me a bite, give me the whole day to feel what love and happiness is,
and i'll be the most happiest human on earth.


but everytime, the moment good things came, happily laughing or smiling,
the next moment, you're down. im not being too emotional, but when these things
happens, i could not endure any longer, i burst out.


i sacrifice my feelings for others satisfactions, i let my heart bleeding,
cos i know no one will know accept myself. i give in to many things,
thou it is obviously unfair for/to me. WHY i must do that to myself everytime?!
why i need to do all these just for the sake for others happiness?!
i dont know.. i have no answer to myself either.


somewhere, somehow, i know time will tell.
i know the time will come one fine day.
but when, god?! :,(